This is my secret talent
I am a chronic planner.
I’m writing this on a Monday and I’m already thinking about what I’ll have for dinner on Thursday. There are several to-do lists on my bedside table, none of which are for the present day, but in fact tomorrow and the day after that. In my closet there are multiple outfits hanging neatly, waiting to be worn. The calendar on my phone is smattered with potential tasks and events that may or may not come to fruition.
Everything requires a plan for me. Whether it’s something as small as showering and watering my plants, or something very broad like “work”, it will undeniably land on my to-do list at one point or another. Now who’s to say that everything on my to-do list always gets done, because it most certainly does not, but you really can’t blame me for aspiring to be highly productive.
This fondness and flair I seem to have for organizing future events is kind of an odd one, but my best guess is that it comes from a desire to always be busy with something to do. I have always had a difficult time with my brain being idle. A lack of tasks or purpose tends to lead me down a dark path of overly self-critical thinking that never ends well. So I stay on top of it by always creating things for myself to get done.
My organization and planning skills certainly come in handy outside of my own self though too.
At work I am in charge of making the schedule every month, and this task definitely comes with it’s own set of challenges, but it is oh-so satisfying for me. The thoughtful arranging of everyone’s shifts into a spreadsheet so that it’s neat, tidy and balanced brings a kind of bliss that is akin to the feeling of waking up and realizing its Saturday.
Along with the pleasure received from achieving a neat and tidy calendar or an all-crossed-off checklist of tasks, this desire for always having a “game plan” comes with it’s disadvantages. I always end up being the one to suggest activities/places to go when the dreaded “what should we do?/where should we eat?” question pops up in a group chat. I really don’t mind being an idea generator most of the time (it’s the best way to make sure you’ll end up doing something you like), I guess sometimes I wish other people took the liberty of contributing their suggestions too.
But hey, if you’re ever looking for someone to arrange your social calendar, plan a seating chart or make you a to-do list, I’m your girl.